不退色的伤口

残忍的要我留下

看见 听见 知道

袖手旁观 忍心吗

却没权利 没资格出声

一切都感觉到

隐隐作痛 折磨着我

成全所有的要求

路人甲一般 而不肯放手

自私的 责怪我当初的潇洒

偶然得到了却从没珍惜

存在 不存在

又有何分别 这算什么

我真的不需要这些来提醒

什么是痛 什么是泪

夺走我的快乐来取代

曾经的一切都被作废

我的存在还有意思吗

顾虑过吗 无心的伤害

消失了 有什么关系

痛！

爱你

爱得好痛

压抑着自己的痛

努力的尝试不去爱你

控制着对你的付出

劝自己要离开 坚持离开

却又离不开

撑着撑得好累

累了 痛了 泪掉了

痛着包容

痛着接受

痛着付出

痛着面对

痛着等待

The worst part is when you thought it past and it starts all over again

苦色

既然不是真正的在乎

从没认真的在意过

就无需用那些在乎的语气

也每必要在意的说出

有谁想要了解心如刀割的感觉

这又算什么

早已习惯难过

我用尽了力气想要讨好你

你却没会意

装作不在意没在乎

我恨这样才能抓着你的注意力

转过身却忘了我是谁

让我最后不得不放弃

我胸口留下永不复原的伤口

隐隐作痛不时提醒一些回忆

对不起

其实你对我不熟悉

attente

Just so you know

I'm still waiting

No matter how long it's gonna be

I'll just stay right here

waiting...

我地之間

陪著我等於死去了無情趣

從前或現在當我是誰

完全忘記往日

我對愛情已死心

貪高興狠心敷衍

一下卻逼真的親吻

我們這結局太不堪

我對你極善良

如若你肯想想我這樣受傷

怎想像 怎相信人

分不出真假的愛恨

彷似幻像
你給我的愛是玩具磨爛後變絕情

並無罪也沒權問你內情話

我都唔知點解

你現時對我冇曬感覺

連我心情你都唔多覺

或者其實 即興嘅幻覺

連自己都唔知道乜系喜乜野系樂

幾時有感覺 又幾時冇曬知覺

就算你無突然失去下落

我地之間都可能已經沒落

慰藉眾生不需責任

一起 若像軟禁 無疑離開

先更 合襯

許多說話都仍然未講

知道無餘地再過問

我說過要你快樂

讓我擔當失戀的主角

也許不必知道我是誰

到了沒法相處 再去記你好處

憑回憶製造這自欺的笑話

曾共渡患難日子總有樂趣

不相信會絕望  

不感覺到躊躇

求你一早放開我

若注定有一點苦楚

不如自己親手割破

誰得到過願放手

曾精彩過願挽留

－月月天天逝去越是覺得深愛你－

究竟那只是习惯还是真的重要真的在乎？

i'm ok

痛痛的爱着...

有勇气的回头留下

却没那么大的勇气接受面对

我...你

她靠近 我离去

默默的 关心着

偷偷的 想念着

撑不住 躲起来

泪掉了 不难过

谁知道 无所谓

不再吵 你远离

心痛了 已麻木

不再爱 不在乎

你开心 那我呢
扮演着 路人甲

第一次 试着忍

第二次 能忍吗
扮潇洒 假洒脱

双重痛 我委屈
沉默着 不提起
雨下了 泪停了

在意吗 那感受

从不懂 不顾虑

曾承诺 都忘了

随便吧 随便...

一直以为是习惯直到事情发生才知道原来是... ... ...

我还有资格在乎吗？

irresponsible

I was heart broken
and 

you came
you fixed it
and 

you left

Certain part of my heart has closed for healing session...

I care too much that's the weak link...
Maybe i should just stop caring to much...

What happened to me?

Comfortably Numb

There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying.
When I was a child I had a FEVER. My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I've got that feeling once again
I can't explain, you would not understand
This is not how I am.

I have become comfortably numb.

Pink Floyd "Comfortably Numb"

numb/detached

How can i regain my ability to feel?

miserable

some part of me has gone missing 

not feeling so right without them

I know i'm getting greedy, that's why i walk away...

冷/numb

我要在哪里找回我那曾今是热腾腾的心？

没有任何感觉不好受...

还我心件外套好吗？

this is me

I should've walk away for a long time ago
I've been hurt enough
When things get tough, i bails
Somehow i still feel the attachment
Shutting you out is killing me
I don't have more reason to continue
So tell me where i go from here
Remember to bring me back whenever i'm gone too long
I'm getting very tired of losing people

"When you get something you will lost something at the same time."

撑

 

我还能撑多久
撑到我累了
累到麻了 麻到痛了
痛的我受不住了
心淡离开了
才努力挽回我的爱
可是我已经不想要了
我无法再接受
我知道我领悟了
过期了的爱
只会把我再次推入悬崖

I don't know why i'm still holding on ...
Believing in the faith ...
Where by, there ain't no turning back ...

我的不开心真的有那么容易被看穿吗？

Hiding up my broken parts that you doesn't need to see...

Do Y.O.U know?

不知不觉 无声无色 无怨无悔

被你一直都握在手中的绳索给绑住了

绑得很紧可是长度无限

不管我多犯贱 多爱玩

不管我跑到哪里 跑得多远

最终还是朝着绳索 回到你身边

曾经想说的

停止 你对我的好

停止 你对我的关心

停止 你对我的体贴

停止 你对我的温柔

停止 你对我的呵护

这一切一切 我都无法享受 

这样的态度 渐渐的伤害了我

偶然我得到的 只有难受

Y.O.U are such a hearts collector!

my silence

一直都不说是因为没有勇气
心痛到麻了
麻得说不出口了

I did it..

I'll push away when i started to care..
I'll run away when i fell for Y.O.U...

Reason

There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone.
It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone.
It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart,
I might not make it.
It's easier to be alone,
Because what if you learn that you need love and you don't have it?
What if you like it and lean on it?
What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart?
Can you even survive that kind of pain?
Losing love is like organ damage.
It's like dying.
The only difference is death ends.
This?
It could go on forever.

-Meredith-

Too late to tell..

If you ever leave me

If you ever run away

It will freak me out

Please don't make me a lost puppy

Because i really fell for you

I don't have more reason to continue ...

Goodbye

I've left

Because you doesn't need me anymore

I wouldn't let go if i could

Promise me
You'll be good
Don't hurt anyone else
Like how you hurt me
Don't let anyone hurt you anymore
Like how you've been hurt before
Live your life
And don't turn around
No worries about my scars
It will heal eventually

Since ...

Everyday it will rain rain rain ... ...

时间？

久而久之的

朋友都不再提起

都不再问起

可我却默默的想起

无时无刻的想起

Y.O.U don't know me well at all, if you do.. You would have noticed earlier..

Big step

It's a big step for me to accept the fact And pretend like I don't care It's a big step for me to let go And hold myself from turning back It's a big step for me to get over it And don't think about it

犯贱

 

我不理不睬

让你恨我

至少我知道

你曾经很爱过

 

 

悄悄离开

对着你 我心痛 说不出口

看见你开心 甜甜的 苦苦的

这么复杂的心情 不好过

资格被取消 占有权被收回

那么不好受 尝试接受 委屈自己

无法忍受 参下去 接受不了

 不如 潇潇洒洒 无声无息

这样的离去 至少我没那么心痛

渐渐的 成为了最熟悉的陌生人

安靜

只剩下鋼琴陪我彈了一天
睡著的大提琴　安靜的舊舊的

我想你已表現的非常明白 
我懂我也知道　你沒有捨不得
 
你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著我　也只是曾經
 
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開
 
你要我說多難堪　我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
我沒有這種天份　包容你也接受他
不用擔心的太多　我會一直好好過
你已經遠遠離開　我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
我真的沒有天份　安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你　是因為我太愛你

 周杰倫

Don't want Y.O.U anymore!

I don't know why i never walk away

I don't know why i care so much

I don't know why i miss you so much

I don't know why it keeps bordering me

I don't know why

I don't know anymore

I'm tired of these

I'm breaking the habit tonight

Seems like busy could keep this feelings away...

Yes!

I don't want to know anymore!

I don't want you to be in my life!

I don't want to be in your life either!

Please...

You are no longer my priority...
Initially, you took away your authority...

Let me know

Show me your jealousy.. Would you?

JustY.O.Uknow

I've got over it doesn't mean i could let go...

I'll be good

It's clear enough

I get it and please stop it

Gemini

可惜我是双子座

天生犯贱 有着改不了的坏习惯

最终只好独自享受伤感

Appreciation

I'm showering Y.O.U with my love

Uncountable drops just like the rain

But, Y.O.U just wouldn't let go your umbrella

And enjoy the rain shower

In fact, Y.O.U enjoy staying under the umbrella with some one else

对着你我心好痛

只有在你面前我伪装我隐藏 因为我在乎的只有你 而伤我最深的是你 教会我伪装让我学会隐藏的也是你

对你的好 被你认为理所当然 而无视了!!!

-Y.O.U hurt me but I still love Y.O.U- I'm sorry

只能怪我不懂如何
向你撒娇 向你发脾气
向你无理取闹
霸道 自私 刁蛮
不懂得霸占你 占有你
怪我太过大方 不懂得如何吃醋
怪我只会宠你 疼你 爱你
怪我重来不曾和你吵 和你闹
怪我有着一颗容易满足的心
从不懂得向你提出过分的要求
不懂也不敢向你奢求什么
默默的包容你所犯下的错
默默地守护着你
一句话也不说 从不埋怨
毫无保留的迁就着你
随你去 让你放肆
总把开心 快乐 自由 留给了你
用尽方法满足你一切一切
把难过 伤心 收起不让你看见
心痛 心酸 从不向你哭诉
我的委屈 我的难受
从不让你知道 让你发现
让你忘了回头看我 我都无所谓
只因为我不懂得如何拒绝你对我所做的
只因为我太过听话 顾虑着你的感受
才让你有机会彻底的伤害着我的心
只因为我害怕面对 顾虑太多
只因为我不懂得如何维持 如何坚守
就因为我太过董事
只能怪我太过董事
才会大方的让你...

- want you to be mine -

I'll wait for you
love you like you want me to
as long as you come back
I'll love you right
this time I'll never let my pride make me run and hide
cause i don't know what else i can do
i don't want you to show me the meaning
meaning of being lonely without you
i want you
you're all i need
I'll give you everything
doesn't matter what it takes
i just want you here with me
i promise I'll never push you away
until...

Morning pain

You want me in your life, you found a way to put me in. However, you are putting me somewhere...   Somewhere else I don't want to be in not suppose to be in!!! Don't you realized? I'm not happy.. Every time I woke up in pain, by knowing I'm not your priority anymore 

伤.深

因为自己不懂得控制
而不小心爱上了
才会让你有机会伤的我那么深

If I let myself care, all I feel is pain...

sans toi

J'ai oublié

ça me fait du bien

Quand avec toi

雨过天晴呢？

*********************************

若无其事
沉默不说
微笑带过
装作不在乎
自欺欺人
雨下过了
还会有天晴吗

???

*********************************

I know and I understand this is our border line...

You gradually been wasting tears that I've saved for you

我们之间还剩多少 ？

Gone

我连占有你的资格都慢慢的消失了

好想说出心底话 就因为勇气 拉住了我

Loving and hating you with equal measure ...

Confuse..

What does this mean? Does it mean anything to you? To me? Or you were just saying it for the sick of fun? I seriously don't get it...

对你

心痛后的心淡
我想离开
可是
我还期待

我的勇气呢?

因为怕动情以后，离去的心痛，所以选择不让自己轻易陷入感情的漩涡

此刻心情

我害怕

我累了

相放弃

想离开

走远远

好好想

想清楚

where are you? i'm in pain...

sitting at the balcony
staring at those lights
far far away
untouchable
uncatchable
unreachable
just like ...

Fool

I never meant to let you go
Why did i leave maybe we'll never know
All this time we're going nowhere and we know it
I was so blind

我以为

选择安静不说
只为了感情保存期
能够多一些些
自欺欺人
原来感情已经过期了

Felt the lingering ache in her heart

Who the hell give you the right to take my heart when you had to leave?

The day is near

Time to prepare for the healing session . . .

lettingGo

It's not up to me anymore

If you want me in your life 

You'll find a way to put me there

Pain!

I'm loosing you forever...

Morning

Plug in my earphone
Turn on my playlist
Listen to the music
Feel the rhythm
Enjoy my own moment

No matter what..

I will steal away your heart without any pain !
I will not waste your tears !
I will light up your everyday !
I will surprise you with my love !
I will paint you colorful life !
I will give you sunshine !
I will make you romantic rainy day/night !
I will do anything for your happiness !

What else i could do to keep you?

拥有

我很自私
你的一切
我都要霸占
我都要占有
都要只属于我

付出的代价

在这游戏里
开始都很确定很有信心
自己一定会是赢的那一个

很确定自己能掌握一切
很确定自己能控制一切
很确定自己可以承担

很有信心自己不会是被伤
很有信心自己不会放感情
很有信心自己不会是输家

可是一旦游戏玩久了投入了
不知不觉的放进心思放进希望
乐在其中享受着习惯了
就连游戏规则都忘了

直到某一天发现
本来配合的玩家不再一样了
才知道其实自己已经够分投入

游戏过程都很用心很花心细的在玩
才知道到原来自己已经无法戒掉
但一切都不受掌握不受控制

发现自己原来承担不起后果而伤了自己
后知后觉自己玩不起已来不及了
以为会是大赢家的自己其实彻底的输了

I'm fine
I'm ok
I'm alright
I just…

Miss you much

Achievement

Crossed the line
Heart broken
Pouring tears
Find the way out
Suffocating

Fall in love later
That's the beauty of it

What hurts more than losing you is knowing that you're not fighting to keep me

I wish i could leave and never return

distance

We don't have to be so close,
No need to be together every single minute,
You ask me if i love you,
But that's not a question...
I made it clear that we need space to continue,
I don't want you to leave either,
Hey, don't cry...
It's only for a little while,
It doesn't have to be that complicated...

Tears are words from the heart that can't be spoken

idiotic

i
made
you
my
priority
but
all
i
am
to
you
is
an
option

诺你看见我那无形的伤痕

Phrase X

If you couldn't understand my silence, how would you understand my words...?

your hug

Hugging me, yes you are
But i couldn't feel it at all

to me/for me

It's enough
Already enough
With just a kiss goodnight
I am willing to endure
Endure everything
Endure every moment
I know where i stand
Not gonna ask for more
Didn't tend to change
My position
In your heart
I'll be good there
What they say
I don't give a damn
I'm not afraid to love you
Love you right
Cause i really afraid
Afraid to lose you
Don't want to lose you
Neither one of you

路人甲

难道你察觉不到吗
还是你重来没注意过

would you offer more ?

respect each others' decisions
maintain a peaceful relationship
loving each other is a type of exercise
i understand
I'm in your chest
but not necessarily in your heart
i don't want to prove
nor know how to
love is shared by two persons
i don't want you to be suspicious
suspecting love is a dangerous weapon
murdering our love

LnH

I doesn't know how to love before
I tried to learn
I tried to love
Eventually, loves brought me hurts...

爱却不能过问

Filled me; showered you

Fill me up with your LOVE
I will shower you with my LOVE

my decision to ____ you

i choose to ignore
i pretend i don't know

one day

What if i push you away ..
What if i left ...
Would you lure me back ?
Will you try hard to ?

该如何... ... ...

该如何跟我害怕失去的人说再见?

Please..

把伤疤揭开
确实想好好爱
但是害怕爱
从心底里珍惜
请你一定不要再也伤害我

If... Could...

如果你可以走进我的心
你一定会哭
因为
你会发现
我的心全是你的点滴
如果我能闯进你的心
我同样会哭
因为
你的心没有半点我的回忆

离开是迟早
只是不懂几时

Hate

I hate missing you
I hate lying in bed at night thinking of you, thinking of someone else
I hate seeing your smile, because its not for me
I hate catching your scent, because i can never call it my favorite perfume
I hate that there’s a desolate cold where you arms used to rest
I hate that my hands are empty of yours
I hate missing you

没有资格的在意还真的难受

Only you

Only you knows how to make me smile :)

我不说

我心痛不说
我在乎不说
我在意不说
我介意不说
我沉默一切
因为我包容

对不起

离开的那12天
想了很多很多
好像领悟到了悬崖勒马的意思
有了想要把你推开的念头
有了想要离开你的念头
开始有了慢慢疏离你的念头
开始有了对你冷淡的念头
一直以为我能狠下心
推开，离开，疏离，冷淡
但，回来以后
却发现这一切我办不到
我对你狠不下心
越是把你推开我越是心痛
尝试要离开却发现越是爱你
离你越远越是想你
越是对你冷淡越是难受
并且发现对你的爱不止那一些些
而且是比以前还多
我...败在你手里
我...再次的败在你手里

你从来没有害怕失去我

－悬崖勒马－

this is me
i will push you away
silently
i didn't meant to hurt you
but i know it will hurt you less
and you will never know
it hurt me more

I'll definitely walk out and shut you down if it exist my limits and patient...

my sorrow is intense and unbearable

如果我是勇敢，你已属于我了

喜欢上你的我, 苦该向谁诉

-only-

our shadows are close...
your shadow belongs to mine...

当

有点想念
有点在乎
有点在意
有点难受
有点心痛
有点复杂
难道我是
喜欢上了

kau hancurkan hati ku

Aku terbakar hati
Saat melihatmu
Mesra mesra dengannya
Di depan mataku

我喜欢上了你

should i wait
should i let go
should i push away
should i forget
or...
should i control

belong to me

you are mine
only when…
you are in my dreams

At least I promise i'll try...

回忆

在怎么美好
也回不去

认了！

因为这次是为了爱
因为这次是真的在乎
过于理智的我
这次不会也不懂如何推开
反而大方接受
再疼再痛也无所谓
只好默默的待在你们身边
直到你们把我推开

my heart

Before you grab it away
Please think twice if you could handle the scars you've left behind...

Addicted

Know that it's gonna hurt so bad but I'm kinda addicted.. It will hurt me more if I stop it..

Phrase IX

I'm sorry i didn't tell you i love you when i knew it

我的喜欢

压抑着自己对你的喜欢
害怕伤痕累累的离开

矛盾！

小心翼翼的听话
只不过不想有什么差错
导致事情发生
最终不管我怎么努力
还是改变不了事实
却改变了自己的想法
我失败了吗？

Phrase VIII

你给的爱渐渐的伤害了我的心...

What are WE? I don't know anymore...

你那句还真的让我感到安慰

害怕

越是在乎你越是疏离你...因为我怕...

something that you doesn't know

the closer we are
the lonelier i feel
the more we meet
the more painful my heart is
the more you look at me
is the sadness to me
but.. i like it
when you are with me
no matter what
i will just stand right here
by your side...

you/u

it makes me feel comfort when with you
it makes me feel unsafe when you're not here with me
it makes me feel unsecured when you're with them

分手吧

放手会比较好过
只是不懂怎样

眼泪的储蓄

为你储存的眼泪

请你别轻易浪费

‎11/11/11您离开的第100天...

right here

sitting here in the dark

thinking about it

it is not songs that i'm listening to

instead

it is the "night" manipulated my feelings

想要完全拥有

有什么方法可以让你的拥抱永永远远属于我的？

尝试...

尝试接受您的离开

尝试放下对您的___

美

被破坏的伤痕

被伤害的疼痛

被遗弃的寂寞

被颓废的悲伤

被毁灭了的美

这些的美

有谁欣赏

一塌糊涂

想起您

却在也哭不出来了

就只有闷闷不乐

难道这就是放下了？

your photo

gosh..

i gotta stop looking...

it makes me miss you more and more..

the fact is..

i laughed so hard

at least my face looks happy

i tends to forget things

so that i wouldn't feel so sad

你，我，他

喜欢上了喜欢着她的你

害怕陷入陷阱

所以

闪开，躲开，避开，逃避

与你对望

所以我不要

爱上了

心却受到了折磨

在一起

就只有等待离别

shadow of heart

Who knows about my cold heart of affection

Your shadow is clear and close

Drawing closer in my heart

看着那么好笑的戏剧

听到大笑的声音

却发现自己皮笑肉不笑

这种强颜欢笑的感觉

好孤单

好寂寞

好想您

还要多久？

忍着泪不掉

闭上眼

看见却是那一幕

伤心点勾起

原来那么容易

早知道了

有了心理准备

不代表容易接受

真害怕哪一年的某一天

我与您的回忆会消失

您的样貌我努力的记着

您的不在，我不习惯

一个人回到家

在这冷清清的客厅

令我想起了您

令我想起了小时候的我

每当一个人回到家

您总会开门迎接我

您总会要我去冲凉

您总会温柔的关心我

您总会要我吃东西

而我总会粘着您

看您在房间里缝衣服

总会爱坐在您身边看着

总会要您配我下棋

总会要您带我去散步

总会要您配我打羽球

总爱吃您煮的麦片粥

don't know how...

How to stop it?

How to get over it?

How to let go?

才知道痛了

本来以为好了

其实并没有

反而感觉到痛了

眼睛一闭就想起您

眼睛再闭得怎么紧

眼泪还是不停的往下掉了

怎么我闭上了眼睛，眼泪还不停的往下掉...?

因为您

我想我不再冲冷水凉了
我想我不再晨运了
我想我不再打羽球了
我想我不再下棋了
我想我不再...

you are in a better place...

I just couldn't stop thinking about it...
Couldn't control my tears...
I know you wouldn't want me to be sad...
But i really miss you...
Miss you much...
Memory flashing back...
It's really painful...

-R.I.P-
P.S: I Loved You!

what if ...

if we weren't friends

if we never met

if we don't know each other

it would be lesser pain

my musics

i close my eyes

i listen to it

i feel in my heart

i miss you

冷酷却带点温柔

I just want to sit here in the dark

手 给 还 丢 收

里 也 也 也 也

的 给 还 丢 收

牵 不 不 不 不

挂 出 了 掉 住

我和你

0°背对背

360°面对面

what to do

knowing is pain

accepting is difficult

letting go is hard

keeping a distance away from you

is even worse

broken

for once

you gave me hopes

you made me believes

everything was turning into colors

everyday was nice day

every night was good night

and then

you broke me

i don't know how long it takes

for me to recover

how long i could wait

i am feeling exhausted already

a to z, 1 to .....

i've got million to tell

thousand to show

hundred to say

and it's hard to put it into words