12.31.2012

如果

回头;留下
我会学着好好爱

12.17.2012

对我的感觉


觉得与我熟悉是因为你让我在乎了
觉得我有距离是因为你让我爱上了
觉得我陌生了是因为你伤得我很深

12.16.2012

I love you through my heart hurts
Though you are looking someplace else
Like a scarecrow like a sad doll
I will always be waiting

11.26.2012

Love song

I always wanted to play a love song for Y.O.U
However I don't know how
I don't have any clue
And Y.O.U aren't giving me any idea
I couldn't remember anything sweet 
Instead... All the memories Y.O.U gave
All the memories I had with Y.O.U
Ain't no inspiration 
That's pathetic 
Despite that, I'm pathetic 

11.16.2012

辛苦


正在努力挨过时
我的心等着迎接第二次的伤悲


我的心承受得

11.15.2012

Y.O.U
never fails to tears me up every night...

11.12.2012

就只剩默默


默默地想念
默默地关心
默默地注意
默默地守护
默默地 默默地
就只能这样吗?

11.07.2012

别无选择

不知量力投入
落得如此田地
搞到片体鳞伤
发现进退两难
只好顺其自然

11.06.2012

ai ma?

有种失去叫不舍得就因为习惯了的感情

11.05.2012

Jar of Heart

What if...
I put my heart into a jar and give it to Y.O.U as Christmas present.
Would Y.O.U...
Keep it with Y.O.U all the time?
Will Y.O.U...
Take good care of it?
Are Y.O.U...
Gonna protect it and won't let it break?
Can Y.O.U...
Fix it once it is about to break?
Do Y.O.U
Appreciate it?

- Let me know please -


11.04.2012

avoid

放下了没 别问我
我不知道 这样带过
是我逃避的方式

- 其实一直都没放下过 -

10.28.2012

不退色的伤口


残忍的要我留下
看见 听见 知道
袖手旁观 忍心吗
却没权利 没资格出声
一切都感觉到
隐隐作痛 折磨着我
成全所有的要求
路人甲一般 而不肯放手
自私的 责怪我当初的潇洒
偶然得到了却从没珍惜
存在 不存在
又有何分别 这算什么
我真的不需要这些来提醒
什么是痛 什么是泪
夺走我的快乐来取代
曾经的一切都被作废
我的存在还有意思吗
顾虑过吗 无心的伤害
消失了 有什么关系

10.26.2012

痛!


爱得好痛
压抑着自己的痛
努力的尝试不去爱
控制着对的付出
劝自己要离开 坚持离开
却又离不开
撑着撑得好累
累了 痛了 泪掉了
痛着包容
痛着接受
痛着付出
痛着面对
痛着等待

10.21.2012





The worst part is when you thought it past and it starts all over again

10.19.2012

苦色

既然不是真正的在乎
从没认真的在意过
就无需用那些在乎的语气
也每必要在意的说出
有谁想要了解心如刀割的感觉
这又算什么
早已习惯难过
我用尽了力气想要讨好
你却没会意
装作不在意没在乎
我恨这样才能抓着你的注意力
转过身却忘了我是谁
让我最后不得不放弃
我胸口留下永不复原的伤口
隐隐作痛不时提醒一些回忆
对不起
其实对我不熟悉

10.18.2012

attente

Just so you know
I'm still waiting
No matter how long it's gonna be
I'll just stay right here
waiting...

10.17.2012

我地之間


陪著我等於死去了無情趣
從前或現在當我是誰
完全忘記往日

我對愛情已死心
貪高興狠心敷衍
一下卻逼真的親吻
我們這結局太不堪

我對極善良
如若肯想想我這樣受傷
怎想像 怎相信人
分不出真假的愛恨

彷似幻像
給我的愛是玩具磨爛後變絕情
並無罪也沒權問內情話

我都唔知點解
現時對我曬感覺
連我心情你都唔多覺
或者其實 即興嘅幻覺

連自己都唔知道系喜野系樂
幾時有感覺 又幾時曬知覺
就算無突然失去下落
我地之間都可能已經沒落

慰藉眾生不需責任
一起 若像軟禁 無疑離開
先更 合襯

許多說話都仍然未講
知道無餘地再過問
我說過要你快樂
讓我擔當失戀的主角

也許不必知道我是誰
到了沒法相處 再去記好處
憑回憶製造這自欺的笑話
曾共渡患難日子總有樂趣

不相信會絕望  
不感覺到躊躇
一早放開我

若注定有一點苦楚
不如自己親手割破
誰得到過願放手
曾精彩過願挽留


-月月天天逝去越是覺得深愛













究竟那只是习惯还是真的重要真的在乎?

10.15.2012

i'm ok

痛痛的爱着...

10.12.2012


有勇气的回头留下
却没那么大的勇气接受面对

10.10.2012

我...你



她靠近 我离去
默默的 关心着
偷偷的 想念着
撑不住 起来
泪掉了 不难过
谁知道 无所谓
不再吵 你远离
心痛了 已麻木
不再爱 不在乎
开心 那我呢
扮演着 路人甲
第一次 试着忍
第二次 能忍吗
扮潇洒 假洒脱
双重痛 我委屈
沉默着 不提起
雨下了 泪停了
在意吗 那感受
从不懂 不顾虑
曾承诺 都忘了
随便吧 随便...

一直以为是习惯直到事情发生才知道原来是... ... ...

10.05.2012

我还有资格在乎吗?

9.27.2012

irresponsible


I was heart broken
and 
you came
you fixed it
and 
you left

9.22.2012

Certain part of my heart has closed for healing session...

9.19.2012

I care too much that's the weak link...
Maybe i should just stop caring to much...

9.17.2012

What happened to me?

9.12.2012

Comfortably Numb

There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying.
When I was a child I had a FEVER. My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I've got that feeling once again
I can't explain, you would not understand
This is not how I am.

I have become comfortably numb.


Pink Floyd "Comfortably Numb"

numb/detached

How can i regain my ability to feel?

9.07.2012

miserable

some part of me has gone missing 
not feeling so right without them

9.05.2012

I know i'm getting greedy, that's why i walk away...

9.03.2012

冷/numb

我要在哪里找回我那曾今是热腾腾的心?
没有任何感觉不好受...
还我心件外套好吗?

this is me

I should've walk away for a long time ago
I've been hurt enough
When things get tough, i bails
Somehow i still feel the attachment
Shutting you out is killing me
I don't have more reason to continue
So tell me where i go from here
Remember to bring me back whenever i'm gone too long
I'm getting very tired of losing people

8.28.2012

"When you get something you will lost something at the same time."

 
我还能撑多久
撑到我累了
累到麻了 麻到痛了
痛的我受不住了
心淡离开了
才努力挽回我的爱
可是我已经不想要了
我无法再接受
我知道我领悟了
过期了的爱
只会把我再次推入悬崖

8.22.2012

I don't know why i'm still holding on ...
Believing in the faith ...
Where by, there ain't no turning back ...

8.19.2012

我的不开心真的有那么容易被看穿吗?

8.18.2012


Hiding up my broken parts that you doesn't need to see...

8.15.2012

Do Y.O.U know?

不知不觉 无声无色 无怨无悔
被你一直都握在手中的绳索给绑住了
绑得很紧可是长度无限
不管我多犯贱 多爱玩
不管我跑到哪里 跑得多远
最终还是朝着绳索 回到你身边

8.12.2012

曾经想说的

停止 你对我的好
停止 你对我的关心
停止 你对我的体贴
停止 你对我的温柔
停止 你对我的呵护
这一切一切 我都无法享受 
这样的态度 渐渐的伤害了我
偶然我得到的 只有难受

8.10.2012


Y.O.U are such a hearts collector!

8.07.2012

my silence


一直都不说是因为没有勇气
心痛到麻了
麻得说不出口了

8.02.2012

I did it..

I'll push away when i started to care..
I'll run away when i fell for Y.O.U...

7.31.2012

Reason


There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone.
It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone.
It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart,
I might not make it.
It's easier to be alone,
Because what if you learn that you need love and you don't have it?
What if you like it and lean on it?
What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart?
Can you even survive that kind of pain?
Losing love is like organ damage.
It's like dying.
The only difference is death ends.
This?
It could go on forever.

-Meredith-

7.27.2012

Too late to tell..


If you ever leave me
If you ever run away
It will freak me out
Please don't make me a lost puppy
Because i really fell for you

7.25.2012


I don't have more reason to continue ...

7.22.2012

Goodbye

I've left
Because you doesn't need me anymore
I wouldn't let go if i could
Promise me
You'll be good
Don't hurt anyone else
Like how you hurt me
Don't let anyone hurt you anymore
Like how you've been hurt before
Live your life
And don't turn around
No worries about my scars
It will heal eventually

7.16.2012

Since ...

Everyday it will rain rain rain ... ...

7.10.2012

时间?


久而久之的
朋友都不再提起
都不再问起
可我却默默的想起
无时无刻的想起

7.09.2012

Y.O.U don't know me well at all, if you do.. You would have noticed earlier..

7.04.2012

Big step

It's a big step for me to accept the fact And pretend like I don't care It's a big step for me to let go And hold myself from turning back It's a big step for me to get over it And don't think about it

7.01.2012

犯贱

 
我不理不睬
让你恨我
至少我知道
你曾经很爱过
 
 

6.28.2012

悄悄离开

对着你 我心痛 说不出口
看见你开心 甜甜的 苦苦的
这么复杂的心情 不好过
资格被取消 占有权被收回
那么不好受 尝试接受 委屈自己
无法忍受 参下去 接受不了
 不如 潇潇洒洒 无声无息
这样的离去 至少我没那么心痛
渐渐的 成为了最熟悉的陌生人

6.26.2012

安靜

只剩下鋼琴陪我彈了一天
睡著的大提琴 安靜的舊舊的

我想你已表現的非常明白 
我懂我也知道 你沒有捨不得
 
你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著我 也只是曾經
 
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開
 
你要我說多難堪 我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
我沒有這種天份 包容你也接受他
不用擔心的太多 我會一直好好過
你已經遠遠離開 我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
我真的沒有天份 安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你 是因為我太愛你

 周杰倫

Don't want Y.O.U anymore!


I don't know why i never walk away
I don't know why i care so much
I don't know why i miss you so much
I don't know why it keeps bordering me
I don't know why
I don't know anymore
I'm tired of these
I'm breaking the habit tonight


6.24.2012

Seems like busy could keep this feelings away...

6.20.2012

Yes!


I don't want to know anymore!
I don't want you to be in my life!
I don't want to be in your life either!
Please...

6.19.2012

You are no longer my priority...
Initially, you took away your authority...

6.18.2012

Let me know

Show me your jealousy.. Would you?

6.11.2012

JustY.O.Uknow

I've got over it doesn't mean i could let go...

6.08.2012

I'll be good


It's clear enough
I get it and please stop it

6.05.2012

Gemini

可惜我是双子座
天生犯贱 有着改不了的坏习惯
最终只好独自享受伤感

6.03.2012

Appreciation


I'm showering Y.O.U with my love
Uncountable drops just like the rain
But, Y.O.U just wouldn't let go your umbrella
And enjoy the rain shower
In fact, Y.O.U enjoy staying under the umbrella with some one else


6.02.2012

对着你我心好痛

只有在你面前我伪装我隐藏 因为我在乎的只有你 而伤我最深的是你 教会我伪装让我学会隐藏的也是你

5.31.2012

对你的好 被你认为理所当然 而无视了!!!

5.30.2012

-Y.O.U hurt me but I still love Y.O.U- I'm sorry

只能怪我不懂如何
向你撒娇 向你发脾气
向你无理取闹
霸道 自私 刁蛮
不懂得霸占你 占有你
怪我太过大方 不懂得如何吃醋
怪我只会宠你 疼你 爱你
怪我重来不曾和你吵 和你闹
怪我有着一颗容易满足的心
从不懂得向你提出过分的要求
不懂也不敢向你奢求什么
默默的包容你所犯下的错
默默地守护着你
一句话也不说 从不埋怨
毫无保留的迁就着你
随你去 让你放肆
总把开心 快乐 自由 留给了你
用尽方法满足你一切一切
把难过 伤心 收起不让你看见
心痛 心酸 从不向你哭诉
我的委屈 我的难受
从不让你知道 让你发现
让你忘了回头看我 我都无所谓
只因为我不懂得如何拒绝你对我所做的
只因为我太过听话 顾虑着你的感受
才让你有机会彻底的伤害着我的心
只因为我害怕面对 顾虑太多
只因为我不懂得如何维持 如何坚守
就因为我太过董事
只能怪我太过董事
才会大方的让你...

5.29.2012

- want you to be mine -

I'll wait for you
love you like you want me to
as long as you come back
I'll love you right
this time I'll never let my pride make me run and hide
cause i don't know what else i can do
i don't want you to show me the meaning
meaning of being lonely without you
i want you
you're all i need
I'll give you everything
doesn't matter what it takes
i just want you here with me
i promise I'll never push you away
until...

5.28.2012

Morning pain

You want me in your life, you found a way to put me in. However, you are putting me somewhere...   Somewhere else I don't want to be in not suppose to be in!!! Don't you realized? I'm not happy.. Every time I woke up in pain, by knowing I'm not your priority anymore 

5.26.2012

伤.深


因为自己不懂得控制
而不小心爱上了
才会让你有机会伤的我那么深

5.25.2012

If I let myself care, all I feel is pain...

5.23.2012

sans toi

J'ai oublié
ça me fait du bien
Quand avec toi

雨过天晴呢?


*********************************

若无其事
沉默不说
微笑带过
装作不在乎
自欺欺人
雨下过了
还会有天晴吗
???

*********************************

5.22.2012

I know and I understand this is our border line...

5.21.2012

You gradually been wasting tears that I've saved for you

5.19.2012

我们之间还剩多少 ?

Gone

我连占有你的资格都慢慢的消失了

5.18.2012

好想说出心底话 就因为勇气 拉住了我

5.17.2012

Loving and hating you with equal measure ...

5.16.2012

Confuse..

What does this mean? Does it mean anything to you? To me? Or you were just saying it for the sick of fun? I seriously don't get it...

5.14.2012

对你

心痛后的心淡
我想离开
可是
我还期待

5.11.2012

我的勇气呢?


因为怕动情以后,离去的心痛,所以选择不让自己轻易陷入感情的漩涡

5.09.2012

此刻心情


我害怕
我累了
相放弃
想离开
走远远
好好想
想清楚




5.08.2012

where are you? i'm in pain...


sitting at the balcony
staring at those lights
far far away
untouchable
uncatchable
unreachable
just like ...


5.07.2012

Fool


I never meant to let you go
Why did i leave maybe we'll never know
All this time we're going nowhere and we know it
I was so blind


5.06.2012

我以为


选择安静不说
只为了感情保存期
能够多一些些
自欺欺人
原来感情已经过期了


5.05.2012

Felt the lingering ache in her heart

5.04.2012

Who the hell give you the right to take my heart when you had to leave?

5.03.2012

The day is near


Time to prepare for the healing session . . .

5.01.2012

lettingGo


It's not up to me anymore
If you want me in your life 
You'll find a way to put me there




4.28.2012

Pain!

I'm loosing you forever...

4.26.2012

Morning

Plug in my earphone
Turn on my playlist
Listen to the music
Feel the rhythm
Enjoy my own moment

4.24.2012

No matter what..

I will steal away your heart without any pain !
I will not waste your tears !
I will light up your everyday !
I will surprise you with my love !
I will paint you colorful life !
I will give you sunshine !
I will make you romantic rainy day/night !
I will do anything for your happiness !

4.23.2012

What else i could do to keep you?

4.20.2012

拥有

我很自私
你的一切
我都要霸占
我都要占有
都要只属于我

4.19.2012

付出的代价

在这游戏里
开始都很确定很有信心
自己一定会是赢的那一个

很确定自己能掌握一切
很确定自己能控制一切
很确定自己可以承担

很有信心自己不会是被伤
很有信心自己不会放感情
很有信心自己不会是输家

可是一旦游戏玩久了投入了
不知不觉的放进心思放进希望
乐在其中享受着习惯了
就连游戏规则都忘了

直到某一天发现
本来配合的玩家不再一样了
才知道其实自己已经够分投入

游戏过程都很用心很花心细的在玩
才知道到原来自己已经无法戒掉
但一切都不受掌握不受控制

发现自己原来承担不起后果而伤了自己
后知后觉自己玩不起已来不及了
以为会是大赢家的自己其实彻底的输了

4.18.2012

I'm fine
I'm ok
I'm alright
I just…
Miss you much

Achievement

Crossed the line
Heart broken
Pouring tears
Find the way out
Suffocating

4.17.2012

Fall in love later
That's the beauty of it

4.16.2012

What hurts more than losing you is knowing that you're not fighting to keep me

4.14.2012

I wish i could leave and never return

4.11.2012

distance


We don't have to be so close,
No need to be together every single minute,
You ask me if i love you,
But that's not a question...
I made it clear that we need space to continue,
I don't want you to leave either,
Hey, don't cry...
It's only for a little while,
It doesn't have to be that complicated...

Tears are words from the heart that can't be spoken

4.09.2012

idiotic

i
made
you
my
priority
but
all
i
am
to
you
is
an
option

4.04.2012

诺你看见我那无形的伤痕

4.02.2012

Phrase X


If you couldn't understand my silence, how would you understand my words...?

3.31.2012

your hug


Hugging me, yes you are
But i couldn't feel it at all

3.29.2012

to me/for me

It's enough
Already enough
With just a kiss goodnight
I am willing to endure
Endure everything
Endure every moment
I know where i stand
Not gonna ask for more
Didn't tend to change
My position
In your heart
I'll be good there
What they say
I don't give a damn
I'm not afraid to love you
Love you right
Cause i really afraid
Afraid to lose you
Don't want to lose you
Neither one of you

路人甲

难道你察觉不到吗
还是你重来没注意过

3.28.2012

would you offer more ?


respect each others' decisions
maintain a peaceful relationship
loving each other is a type of exercise
i understand
I'm in your chest
but not necessarily in your heart
i don't want to prove
nor know how to
love is shared by two persons
i don't want you to be suspicious
suspecting love is a dangerous weapon
murdering our love


3.26.2012

LnH

I doesn't know how to love before
I tried to learn
I tried to love
Eventually, loves brought me hurts...
爱却不能过问

3.24.2012

Filled me; showered you


Fill me up with your LOVE
I will shower you with my LOVE

3.23.2012

my decision to ____ you


i choose to ignore
i pretend i don't know

3.18.2012

one day


What if i push you away ..
What if i left ...
Would you lure me back ?
Will you try hard to ?

3.15.2012

该如何... ... ...

该如何跟我害怕失去的人说再见?

Please..

把伤疤揭开
确实想好好爱
但是害怕爱
从心底里珍惜
请你一定不要再也伤害我

3.13.2012

If... Could...

如果你可以走进我的心
你一定会哭
因为
你会发现
我的心全是你的点滴
如果我能闯进你的心
我同样会哭
因为
你的心没有半点我的回忆

3.10.2012

离开是迟早
只是不懂几时

3.08.2012

Hate

I hate missing you
I hate lying in bed at night thinking of you, thinking of someone else
I hate seeing your smile, because its not for me
I hate catching your scent, because i can never call it my favorite perfume
I hate that there’s a desolate cold where you arms used to rest
I hate that my hands are empty of yours
I hate missing you

3.05.2012

没有资格的在意还真的难受

3.02.2012

Only you

Only you knows how to make me smile :)

我不说

我心痛不说
我在乎不说
我在意不说
我介意不说
我沉默一切
因为我包容

2.26.2012

对不起

离开的那12天
想了很多很多
好像领悟到了悬崖勒马的意思
有了想要把推开的念头
有了想要离开的念头
开始有了慢慢疏离的念头
开始有了对冷淡的念头
一直以为我能狠下心
推开,离开,疏离,冷淡
但,回来以后
却发现这一切我办不到
我对狠不下心
越是把推开我越是心痛
尝试要离开却发现越是爱
离你越远越是想
越是对冷淡越是难受
并且发现对的爱不止那一些些
而且是比以前还多
我...败在手里
我...再次的败在手里

2.22.2012

你从来没有害怕失去我

2.21.2012

-悬崖勒马-

this is me
i will push you away
silently
i didn't meant to hurt you
but i know it will hurt you less
and you will never know
it hurt me more

2.06.2012

I'll definitely walk out and shut you down if it exist my limits and patient...

2.02.2012

my sorrow is intense and unbearable

2.01.2012

如果我是勇敢,你已属于我了

1.28.2012


喜欢上你的我, 苦该向谁诉

1.16.2012

-only-

our shadows are close...
your shadow belongs to mine...

1.15.2012


有点
想念
有点在乎
有点在意
有点难受
有点心痛
有点复杂
难道
喜欢上了

1.14.2012

kau hancurkan hati ku


Aku terbakar hati
Saat melihatmu
Mesra mesra dengannya
Di depan mataku

1.13.2012

我喜欢上了你

should i wait
should i let go
should i push away
should i forget
or...
should i control

1.12.2012

belong to me


you are mine
only when…
you are in my dreams

1.11.2012

At least I promise i'll try...

1.09.2012

回忆


在怎么美好
也回不去

1.08.2012

认了!

因为这次是为了爱
因为这次是真的在乎
过于理智的我
这次不会也不懂如何推开
反而大方接受
再疼再痛也无所谓
只好默默的待在你们身边
直到你们把我推开

1.05.2012

my heart

Before you grab it away
Please think twice if you could handle the scars you've left behind...

1.02.2012

Addicted

Know that it's gonna hurt so bad but I'm kinda addicted.. It will hurt me more if I stop it..

Phrase IX

I'm sorry i didn't tell you i love you when i knew it