对不起

离开的那12天
想了很多很多
好像领悟到了悬崖勒马的意思
有了想要把你推开的念头
有了想要离开你的念头
开始有了慢慢疏离你的念头
开始有了对你冷淡的念头
一直以为我能狠下心
推开，离开，疏离，冷淡
但，回来以后
却发现这一切我办不到
我对你狠不下心
越是把你推开我越是心痛
尝试要离开却发现越是爱你
离你越远越是想你
越是对你冷淡越是难受
并且发现对你的爱不止那一些些
而且是比以前还多
我...败在你手里
我...再次的败在你手里

你从来没有害怕失去我

－悬崖勒马－

this is me
i will push you away
silently
i didn't meant to hurt you
but i know it will hurt you less
and you will never know
it hurt me more

I'll definitely walk out and shut you down if it exist my limits and patient...

my sorrow is intense and unbearable

如果我是勇敢，你已属于我了

喜欢上你的我, 苦该向谁诉

-only-

our shadows are close...
your shadow belongs to mine...

当

有点想念
有点在乎
有点在意
有点难受
有点心痛
有点复杂
难道我是
喜欢上了

kau hancurkan hati ku

Aku terbakar hati
Saat melihatmu
Mesra mesra dengannya
Di depan mataku

我喜欢上了你

should i wait
should i let go
should i push away
should i forget
or...
should i control

belong to me

you are mine
only when…
you are in my dreams

At least I promise i'll try...

回忆

在怎么美好
也回不去

认了！

因为这次是为了爱
因为这次是真的在乎
过于理智的我
这次不会也不懂如何推开
反而大方接受
再疼再痛也无所谓
只好默默的待在你们身边
直到你们把我推开

my heart

Before you grab it away
Please think twice if you could handle the scars you've left behind...

Addicted

Know that it's gonna hurt so bad but I'm kinda addicted.. It will hurt me more if I stop it..

Phrase IX

I'm sorry i didn't tell you i love you when i knew it

我的喜欢

压抑着自己对你的喜欢
害怕伤痕累累的离开

矛盾！

小心翼翼的听话
只不过不想有什么差错
导致事情发生
最终不管我怎么努力
还是改变不了事实
却改变了自己的想法
我失败了吗？

Phrase VIII

你给的爱渐渐的伤害了我的心...

What are WE? I don't know anymore...

你那句还真的让我感到安慰

害怕

越是在乎你越是疏离你...因为我怕...

something that you doesn't know

the closer we are
the lonelier i feel
the more we meet
the more painful my heart is
the more you look at me
is the sadness to me
but.. i like it
when you are with me
no matter what
i will just stand right here
by your side...

you/u

it makes me feel comfort when with you
it makes me feel unsafe when you're not here with me
it makes me feel unsecured when you're with them

分手吧

放手会比较好过
只是不懂怎样

眼泪的储蓄

为你储存的眼泪

请你别轻易浪费

‎11/11/11您离开的第100天...

right here

sitting here in the dark

thinking about it

it is not songs that i'm listening to

instead

it is the "night" manipulated my feelings

想要完全拥有

有什么方法可以让你的拥抱永永远远属于我的？

尝试...

尝试接受您的离开

尝试放下对您的___

美

被破坏的伤痕

被伤害的疼痛

被遗弃的寂寞

被颓废的悲伤

被毁灭了的美

这些的美

有谁欣赏

一塌糊涂

想起您

却在也哭不出来了

就只有闷闷不乐

难道这就是放下了？

your photo

gosh..

i gotta stop looking...

it makes me miss you more and more..

the fact is..

i laughed so hard

at least my face looks happy

i tends to forget things

so that i wouldn't feel so sad

你，我，他

喜欢上了喜欢着她的你

害怕陷入陷阱

所以

闪开，躲开，避开，逃避

与你对望

所以我不要

爱上了

心却受到了折磨

在一起

就只有等待离别

shadow of heart

Who knows about my cold heart of affection

Your shadow is clear and close

Drawing closer in my heart

看着那么好笑的戏剧

听到大笑的声音

却发现自己皮笑肉不笑

这种强颜欢笑的感觉

好孤单

好寂寞

好想您

还要多久？

忍着泪不掉

闭上眼

看见却是那一幕

伤心点勾起

原来那么容易

早知道了

有了心理准备

不代表容易接受

真害怕哪一年的某一天

我与您的回忆会消失

您的样貌我努力的记着

您的不在，我不习惯

一个人回到家

在这冷清清的客厅

令我想起了您

令我想起了小时候的我

每当一个人回到家

您总会开门迎接我

您总会要我去冲凉

您总会温柔的关心我

您总会要我吃东西

而我总会粘着您

看您在房间里缝衣服

总会爱坐在您身边看着

总会要您配我下棋

总会要您带我去散步

总会要您配我打羽球

总爱吃您煮的麦片粥

don't know how...

How to stop it?

How to get over it?

How to let go?

才知道痛了

本来以为好了

其实并没有

反而感觉到痛了

眼睛一闭就想起您

眼睛再闭得怎么紧

眼泪还是不停的往下掉了

怎么我闭上了眼睛，眼泪还不停的往下掉...?

因为您

我想我不再冲冷水凉了
我想我不再晨运了
我想我不再打羽球了
我想我不再下棋了
我想我不再...

you are in a better place...

I just couldn't stop thinking about it...
Couldn't control my tears...
I know you wouldn't want me to be sad...
But i really miss you...
Miss you much...
Memory flashing back...
It's really painful...

-R.I.P-
P.S: I Loved You!

what if ...

if we weren't friends

if we never met

if we don't know each other

it would be lesser pain

my musics

i close my eyes

i listen to it

i feel in my heart

i miss you

冷酷却带点温柔

I just want to sit here in the dark

手 给 还 丢 收

里 也 也 也 也

的 给 还 丢 收

牵 不 不 不 不

挂 出 了 掉 住

我和你

0°背对背

360°面对面

what to do

knowing is pain

accepting is difficult

letting go is hard

keeping a distance away from you

is even worse

broken

for once

you gave me hopes

you made me believes

everything was turning into colors

everyday was nice day

every night was good night

and then

you broke me

i don't know how long it takes

for me to recover

how long i could wait

i am feeling exhausted already

a to z, 1 to .....

i've got million to tell

thousand to show

hundred to say

and it's hard to put it into words

suffer

it still hurt

not little but

getting lots and lots

trying...

Baby, i am sorry for what i did...

I just want it to be better...

Turns out things doesn't works the way i want...

And it hasn't been better...

So many time... i wanted to talk to you, but you weren't here...

sweet dream (=

had you ever have a dream

that feel so real until you wake up

you just want to lie there

with your eyes close

and hold on with it?

hate this

Still having you in my dream,

I wonder why...

How i wish i could control it!

question

Are you suppose to let me pass you by?

pathetic

You don't love me

You don't want me

You lure me back

You cheated on me

You took away everything i have

You left nothing for me but pain

No matter how well i've done

I will never get any compliment from you...

Want you out of my life!

left me and my pain

Fuck!

I dreamt of you

Guess i really miss you

And i don't think i want this

Cause i know you wouldn't did the same

So sweet yet so pain

And it was killing me

Sweet dream of mine was the worst nightmare

To me, when i woke up

不再期待了…

when i drive alone...

Love to drive alone on the highway

It's the best time for me to do my thinking

Think about the past

Think about the future

Think about my silly future plan

Think about my family

Think about my friends

Think about everything...

Sometimes i actually want you you you and you to be able to read certain parts in my mind...

习惯拥有

讨厌这种感觉

习惯拥有的感觉

让人享受习惯后心疼失去

Your good bye sounds like forever to me...

etoiles de la nuit et mes larmes

Silent night...

Shining shining stars in the sky

Butterflies and fireflies is everywhere

I made a wish

Wished for shooting star

I saw shooting star

Again i made a wish

Wished you were here with me

Sitting beside me, enjoy this beautiful night with me...

I woke up, i woke up

I feel the pain

I look up the sky

I saw nothing but tears

I shed a tears

at night

Raine night

All i can think about is YOU

Until it stop

All i miss is YOU

Night with/without rain

All i have is loneliness

My Bday

It's 3rd June 2011

It's my birthday

Wishes filled up my profile wall

I got my first birthday song

I got my first birthday cake

But... I am waiting for yours

day and night

You are my last thought every night...

Wondering...

Am i your first thought every morning?

irreplaceable

Baby you were here with me everyday and did not appreciate much, i did not take good care, i did not treat you tenderly, at least i still make sure you were with me everyday and everywhere i went, indirectly... Baby, you became the most important one for me, idiot me.. I am hurt, i am heartbroken, my heart is pain, i am sad... Please, i do not want any baby else...

原来没人真正了解

心情低落想找人聊聊

找来找去

却找不到对的人

如果

你不欣赏，我无所谓

但…请别糟蹋

至少小小的鼓励足以安慰

离开时

说了再见，转头离开

心思思的又转过头

望着你的背影

舍不得的眼神

偶然，放慢了脚步

只想让你转过头来多望一眼

are you listening...?

Am listening to this song,

Song that reminds me so much about you...

偶然

记忆勾起了…

回想一起度过的日子…

幕幕都记得很清楚…

感觉却复杂了许多…

night lights i like

Sitting in the car

Looking out the window

I saw colourful night lights

and i realized

My feelings is colorless without you by my side

my feeling is manipulated whenever i'm listening to ...

phrase VII

If you ever noticed

The line between love and hate truly is very, very thin

phrase VI

Few seconds of beauty, just like sun rise and sun set...

下雨了

路灯反射水面上雨滴

这样的天气

总是让人伤感

我又

我又再次的逃避了

The day

plural day...

我的防伪墙

为自己所造的围墙

随着时间的过去

不知不觉却把围墙越造越厚

就连自己都不知何时何日才拆得下

如果你遇见了

你会有耐心的一层一层的把它拆下吗？

你会好奇想看看围墙后面究竟是什么样的世界吗？

如果是这样

那…

有了你的帮忙

围墙有可能拆完吗？

写下了

不善于表达

就只好写下

写下表达不出的心情

写下表达不出的感觉

写下表达不出的感受

写下了许多许多

几时你才会发现

婆婆

看着窗外的黄昏

听着那优雅的叫声

威风飘过大方起舞

想起小时候的我

常陪我打羽球的您

会带我去散步的您

教会我下棋的您

说您当年威风故事给我听的您

而我，却不懂得珍惜那些时刻

还会常发您脾气

嫌您重复又重复说同样故事的您烦

长大了都不再爱散步了，与您话题也越来越少了

关系疏离了好远好远

如今，再也没机会和您打羽球

没机会和您下下棋聊聊天散散步了

如果现在我很用力的抱抱您

您会感觉到的是舒服，温暖，感动？

还是疼痛？

想要回到过去，好让我重新好好珍惜这份爱

我一定要让秒针走得比平时满一倍...

in this damn cold night

Forgive me my weakness,

Wipe away tears that i cry,

Trying figure out what it's like to move on.

Do you feel happy?

At the end of the day,

It's only what you think,

So that's what you're happy with.

are you ready?

Ready to go again?

or...

Ready to give up?

thousand/billion i don't want

billion innoncence

thousand naive

and i don't want your sincere

Just... forget about it

What is the point?

Since that you don't even care.

报答

想让你好过

想让你幸福

但却失去了方向

担心，害怕，忧虑

是否能如愿以偿？

You

have

no

idea

how

much

i

needed

to

hear

that

...

see this through

First time in my life

I curled up on my own

Looking at me now

You would never know

1+1=1

两个人在一起的孤独

有了习惯

却少了爱

为了妥协而原谅

分开理由说不出

our tears

You got tears, making tracks...

I got tears, that are scared of the facts...

Broken string guitar

A guitar with broken string of mine

Am still keeping it

Keeping it that way

It used to be my precious and special one

It used to sound so nice

Every story behind the broken strings

Every story behind the scars

It meant something to me

I know

I know it isn't gonna sound better after all

I know ain't no turning back

I know the future is vague

I realized

I realized that care too much is the weakness of mine

I realized that i don't have the potential of letting go

Tear my heart open

Cut my veins apart

Just to remove

Just to feel again

Obsessed

End up it hurts

Keeping it

Repaired it

Continued playing

Nobody knows

grown up !

I don't need another you...

彻彻底底的潇洒了一次…

每天

同个地方

两年前

两年后

未来的两年

而不同的是

身边的同学

功课的伙伴

上课的感觉

用餐的气氛

娱乐的心情

等等…等等…的

都不在一样了

每天都会有那

一丝丝的怀念

一丝丝的想念

一丝丝的幻想

just

____ is just a friend,

a over protecting one...

my sweet dream...

when i wake up

for a minuite

i'm totally happy

until i realize i am alone

He is and She is

very Persistent...

...definitely putting the pieces of the Puzzle together

compete

I stop competing because i know i don't have the competitive advantage...

the TRUTH is hurting me ...

forever...

那时的我们

感觉像是画中里的主角

画里的世界

就像永远

你＋我＝？

昨天的你

今天的你

明天的你

et

每天的我

有/没有

没有可能的可能是不会有的

used to be

We used to be happy

We used to be close to each other

I missed you

and...

Things have changed now

your happiness

Am happy

Happy to know that

You are happier now

my bAbii

自私的想把你变成我的宝贝

Sometimes people just want to be left alone

wait..

The

waiting...

is

always

the

hard

part

F.....S

原来这就是少了朋友寂寞的感觉...

T.T

You will never know how i'm feeling now ...

离别 II

One by one

The closest friends of mine has left

Day by day

I can feel the loneliness already

4 in the morning

Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
and all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning and the tears are pouring
and I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
and all I know is
You got to give me everything
and nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me


I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning and the tears are pouring
and I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have

and all I know is
You got to give me everything
and nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning and the tears are pouring
and I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

can you hear me..?

Is anyone out there whom will never force me to do something i don't like. Is anyone out there can listen to me, willing to listen to my heart without judgement. Is anyone out there whom can truly understand what i'm actually thinking. Is anyone out there whom wanting to know the inside of me. Is anyone out there? Is anyone out there i can talk to? I need you... Is anyone out there?

dilemma

I thought of you before i hangover

I dreamt of you before i sober...

when you are sad...

i'll just stand here with you

if there's alright

and...

if you need a hug

离别

第一个离别的心酸

感受到了

以为没什么的离别

当…

一幕幕的回忆突然往脑海冲

不知觉的泪也往下掉

真不敢面对第二第三个离别

真的很不喜欢这种场面

朋友一个个的离开

很不习惯

突然少了你们

真的真的很不习惯！

珍惜

两年

刚刚好的时间

让我们互相了解

我们的遇见

我们的认识

我们的性格

都把我们的距离拉近

无论之间的距离有多远

从不感到后悔之间的认识

每一时每一刻

说了再见

离别

并不是最难受

难受的

是每当过去的日子

一幕幕出现在脑海里

所习惯的

一切都要重新来过

所认识的

所了解的

都不会有一抹一样的出现

The way it ends

Is this to be our fate?

This is the way it ends

Don't tell me it's meaningless

There'll be no compromise

We falling we too shall rise

You held me and taught me how

I think i am ready now

If this is the way it ends

Then this is the way it's meant to be

gone

失去了的潇洒

那里找？

以前的自己离开了

about

It isn't about Knowing

It's about Feeling

隐隐约约的存在感...

The existence of a vague sense...

WhoYouAre.WhoIAm

I've been mean to you, i know...

Because you are different to me...

远

如此亲密的陌生感

何时开始

喜欢上了你的眼神？

喜欢在你眼神里寻找自己

喜欢上了出现在你眼孔里的自己

眼光

你那一丝冷漠的眼光

忘不了诱惑我的眼光

Credits to Vinsiie

Chapters

Stories

behind

THE

pouring

tears

of

mine...

夫妻

双人床头上空荡荡的墙壁

seeking!

Are you the person who i can talk to?

Are you the person that willing to listen to me?

Are you the person who'd forced me cry?

all along

人始终会变

时间始终在走

感觉始终会淡

一直盼望的

始终会有到来的一天

Charm

If i have these charm

I will do it right away

Believe me i will

I will use my spell

I will make you charmed to me

Over n Over Again

Torn into pieces...

Realizing, nothing could stitch it up!

Deny? Pretend?

If i could, i would spend my time on stitching it up...

Prevent? Avoid?

If it happens...

Compromise

因为心淡而妥协

之间的同情而妥协

谁也不想要

Here I am

If you ever searching

I'll be just right here

朋友！

一句谢谢！

都无法感谢

两年以来的友情

我们的缘分

大家的相遇

互相的了解

体谅与包容

照顾与关怀

大家的用心

为彼此所付出

P.S:你们的好永远都记在心里！

NotLookingForThat

It isn't fair

It'll never be fair

No expectation

No disappointment

ThankYou!

谢谢！

谢谢你们！

谢谢你们的用心！

Love + Hug! Mwaks!

Nothing is meaningless

This is the way that you'll remember me...

Emerge from the shadows...

This is the way it's meant to be...

BecauseYouDon'tKnowAtAll

I like you but...

I can't be with you

brave

发现其实自己并没有那么的勇敢

被遗弃了

经常

独来独望

因为

习惯了被遗弃

习惯了不被关心

一个人

眼泪蒸发了

过程独自度过

缝好的裂痕

掩盖了痕迹

伪装了自己

隐藏了伤痛

学会了小心

习惯了保护

说我冷血

说我花心

你懂多少？

发现

久而久之

眼泪却无法望下掉

- it -

Eventually, it hurts...

Apparently, over time it will hurt less and less...

However, it will still in our heart...

Moreover, we will never forget that...

强颜欢笑

习惯了伪装

习惯了隐藏

被伤害了

想哭却哭不出来